Do the feelings and hurt ever leave? It seems like they just get stronger the more you fight it. How does everyone do it? It seems like you are the last one standing and you are the biggest moron alive and everyone is pointing and laughing. Awwww such a great feeling!! The feelings are just so built up inside....frustration, anger, hurt, confusion, love, hope, charity. How do I straighten all of these feelings out. I of course don't want to feel the bad feelings but the good ones really can't be felt either. This is why it's so tough and nobody truly understands. Am I a fool for ever caring or letting myself possibly think it could ever be...Maybe so. I too easily let myself care for people and give them my whole heart for them to stomp on and crush. In all the crazy jumbled thoughts that go through my head I think to myself that I have to stop caring so easily for people, but really is that such a bad thing that I want to be there for someone and do anything for them and share every moment, laugh and thought with them?
I was told by a good friend that we are human we need someone to care for and be with. We are not meant to be alone! Why is then that so many choose to be and are okay with it....really I don't get it and don't know if I ever will. I do feel alone regardless of all the friends and family that are incredible......something is still missing.
My Babies
14 years ago